Self Portrait Series 7/52
As a mom, I wear a lot of different hats, one of which is nurturer. In recent years I have found this role difficult at times. The pandemic kicked off a difficult time for all families. For us, having less time away from our kids, the shift in daily responsibilities, and having Ammon home with us changed everything. That timeframe was also when I shifted into the role as the main income earner for our family.
I've always had a drive to lead, manage and provide for my family. Diving into my career and using my strengths to do just that has been so rewarding! I’ve also felt the weight of that responsibility, though. The more I worked to provide, the less I felt my natural nurturer coming through. I found myself pushing the nurturer aside in order to keep on top of everything else. Sometimes I felt my pendulum swing so far away from what I believe are the most important parts of my role as a mother.
Reconnecting with My Softer Side
I’ve been making a focused effort to lean into the role of nurturer more, and I’m finding so much joy in reconnecting with that part of myself. I love nurturing my children and my husband. It feels like a special assignment that binds me to the people I love most. When my children are sick, emotionally or physically, I’m there for them. It’s not always easy for me to automatically soothe them. Sometimes I want them to “suck it up” and “get over it” fast, but as I’ve been learning that all emotions are helpful and useful, I now love working through their feelings with them. It gives me empathy, expands my soul, and makes me feel more human. I think the saddest thought in the world is that, if I did pass away, this role wouldn’t be filled for my children as they navigate different scenarios throughout their lives.
As the nurturer, I get to create a special place for my kids where they feel safe, secure and free to be themselves. It’s my job, as a mom, to give my children my best. I want to make sure they know I’m here for them in every way, even if I do have to work. I consider this role one of my biggest blessings and I have loved intentionally tapping into it more and more. This is something I want to nourish inside of myself so others can feel it, too - not just my kids.
What Are Your Roles?
What roles do you take on in your life? Are there some you feel more naturally suited for? Which ones are challenging for you? Which do you find most rewarding? I want to hear in the comments. I also wanted to let you guys know that I am not able to respond directly to comments on my new website yet. It’s a total bummer and we’re trying to get it figured out. In the meantime, I just wanted to thank each and every one of you that joins in on the conversation, even if it does feel one-sided. I read every one of your comments and they mean so much to me. I love hearing your thoughts and getting to know you better!